on the fone

a fone line over skype connected me to mama..how are you reham ?..i was holding on never to show my feelings..dad came and asked me how i am and why i sound sad, etfata7t fel 3eyat..don't wanna come back to the loss and heartache..i hoped that i could return to cairo with a plan in my mind for my future that is blocked in cairo..no response came till now from the professor and am worried , so much worried..the ghosts i left back in egypt keep popping their heads every now and then..this experience is making me strong , but i need something stable for me to live and feel safe..am not leading a stable life in cairo..i need help..god , don't leave me alone in what am in right now..i have no plan back in cairo , here i can get a life