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اه نسيت والله اقول انى اضفت لقائمة كتبى اللى قريتها السنة دى كتاب اسامة غريب ابن سنية أبانوز...كتاب لذيذ وخفيف...لما اخف ان شاء الله يمكن اشوف ايه اللى فاتنى فى القراية..واللى عنده اقتراح لكتاب ممكن اقراه خصوصا وانا عيانة ولابدة فى البيت..يا ريت يقترح وحكون شاكرة الافضال والانوار..الله ينور يا رجالة وسلامو عليكو

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يا رب سايقة عليك حبيبك النبى تخلصنى من اللى انا فيه.....هكذا اقول لنفسى وانا اخطو اليوم اول يوم فى الشهر الثالث من علاجى من الالتهاب الرئوى...لم استطع ان افهم ما معنى ان يقول لى المصريين فى الغربة ان حدوث هذا الالتهاب كان من سوء حظى؟
..جعلتنى هذة الاقاويل افكر كثيرا فى معنى كلمة الايمان ..والتى كنا ننافشه بأربع لغات من عدة اسابيع فى ستار باكس باليابان..واستطيع ان اقول اننى ولأول مرة فى حياتى استطيع ان افهم معنى كلمة الايمان بالقضاء والقدر...كانت من المسلمات فى حياتى..ولكن فترة حياتى السابقة كانت تقوم على الحسابات ..عملا بمبدأ اللى يحسب الحسابات فى الهنا يبات..وكانت ماشية معايا مرة حلاوة على مرة خيبة أو بالاحرى مرات..الوقعة بتاعت العيا المرة دى مش سهلة ولا هينة..دخول مستشفى مرتين فى اقل من 3 شهور فى حالة خطر..مع تأجيل الدكتوراة..والله حد نشاها عين ..حسبى الله ونعم الوكيل..مع كل الألم اللى بييا ودخولى أهوه الشهر التالت فى علاج مكثف للالتهاب الرئوى مع معاناتى من مضاعفات المضاد الحيوى وما يتبعه من اسهال ميه والاتهاب باللثة ووجع الاسنان- لا اراكم الله وجع السنان بجد-مع الاجهاد الشديد والاحساس الدائم انى خلاص حيطلعلى ديل من كترة الادوية...المهم فى وسط كل ده قدرت افهم المعنى الحقيقى للايمان بالقضاء والقدر..لأن اللى انا فيه دلوقتى مش نتيجة حسابات تحتمل الخطا والصواب...دهع قضاء وحكم من ربنا وانا بنفذه..طبعا أول ما الجزع والعياط خفوا شوية..ابتديت أهدى و افهم معانى تانية للايمان...بس يا رب الامتحان المرة دى صعب كتير..صعب قوى والله ...أدعولى ربنا يخفف عنى ...مش عاوزة أقول كلام غير كده دلوقتى..بس لمل أخلص حبقى أحكى كل حاجة..عشان بجد انا محتاجة أفضفض للبلوج عشان قلبى النونو ممكن ما يستحملش كل اللى حصل له فى ألفين وتسعة...وعشان يقدر يستحمل ويكمل لازم يحكى..وانا ححكى باذن الله

fekra x gomla

انا الموضوع خرج من ايدى...راح فى ايدى التانية...محمد سعد..كتكوت

fekra x gomla

when life gets harder..crying is no more optional..it is mandatory ! said by me

in the memory of my beloved mac book

this is my last and final posting from my old mac book , which was given to me under authority...am posting while am a little bit sad and about to cry..holding back the tears sometimes is a difficult matter...so i put on some music and to my surprise i found the song that i have been searching for for many years ..es2al 3alaya , layla morad,this time performed by siham assif..just a nice song to sooth my nerves...it has been a hard and long time...since last monday and i am sick..very bad cold ...not a normal flu virus..i was afraid to report my condition , never wanted a quarantine..just kept the issue under my control and i was saying to myself this is seasonal flu , not much!
To the hell with this mutant virus of flu!
I had pains all over, joint pains even in the small joints,muscle pain, bony pains,fever 38 ,and severe body weakness..it was like hell!
I was confined in bed for many days putting myself under my own consultation and medical treatment regimen...Thank God that it has passed!
one of the nights was serious, i was chocking !
my chest was wheezy and then was about to be closed...i ran in my room like a crazy person fighting for my breaths..my brother could not hear me when i was asking for his help...had to help my self on my own!
This is my second time to be in a critical condition in Japan...first was with the severe infection of my gall bladder and this is my second time, the asthma like attack in my chest
I was strongly needing a bronchodilator..it was nearly dawn and if i will call emergency or the police, i would be dead before they arrive..i asked god's help for my second time in Japan while i was feeling , for the second time, that i was seriously going to die...i ran to the kitchen..even if i slit my throat open with a knife, this will not help..i needed a bronchodilator!
I took antihistaminics and i made myself quickly some herbs,guwava leaves,boiled in water and i drank it saying besm ellah el safy el mo3afy..i did it twice..God was saving me with his hands and i could finally breath!
Then,when still my cold is there, i had severe bleeding during my cycle due to excessive intake of NSAID..when i have found myself bleeding at the hospital,i ran to my house by a taxi to get myself all together in my room..it has stopped..i never needed any transfusion or vitamin k IM.
I will never repeat that again...i controlled my anaemia with the honey and i had to do come CBC ,blood test to check on my values.
And last ,but not least,yesterday alone was a day on its own!
I had developed cystitis due to lacking water intake during my fever..it was severe, dysuria with frequency...every 5 minutes i was going to the toilet..i took many glasses of water and drugs and antibiotics to alleviate my pain..i took 2 non alcoholic beers as diuretics..many pain killers because of my pain ..it was really too much.
with no food intake during this time, i look pale and exhausted..but am mostly exhausted emotionally..
not because one of close friends never asked about me during my absence,while i have helped her a lot when she first arrived here,but because of 2 bad news i heard one after the other...a young woman died in india after eating some indian dish and then took sleeping pills for sleeping..i have no idea if this has made some kind of drug intercation that has made her die in her sleep..her facebook account made my heart ache...really until now am gloomy because of her..
second news, one of our mates here made a car accident and transferred to the hospital !
the only thing that made me laugh is that i guess our "team" is going to loose in Italy !!
not our team of egyptian footballers ;) ..another team !
I hope this all will pass and i will regain my peace of mind once again ...
another thing...wa2oul gharamak makansh leiia...don't ask about me ...

fekra x gomla

to step outside the dirty game..cold blooded...with all the dignity in the world..men ta2lifi wa ekhragi ;)

fekra x gomla

we ma3alemtaksh el 2aswa ..dee mosh me7taga 3alam..asl enta akeed mel awel keda..wel 2aswa dee feik ...amr diab,law ader

gameil gedan :D

first time for me to know that boys can have a heart and can suffer as we all girls do !

gameil gedan :D

fekra x gomla

kollo gaii mel sein..na2s ye3melo bany admein....karim abo zeid,el sein song :D